I had a crush on a friend of my older sister. She woke me up in the middle of the night during a sleep-over and brought me outside, where we fumbled our way through sex that must've looked like a barroom brawl. She pinned me down and subconsciously implanted what would forever be my favorite position. I was 16.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.