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"Diane! What are you doing in there? What's taking you so long?"

The sound of Mother's voice penetrated the oh-so-sweet haze that surrounded Diane as her breathing slowed and her heartbeat slowly returned to normal causing a sharp pang of guilt hit her like a cannonball in the gut. What had she been thinking? She'd practically neglected Mother the entire day -- and here it was night already. "Coming, Mother! Be right there!"

Giving her hands a quick wash, Diane straightened her clothing and hurried to her mother's bedroom. She'd make her a cup of tea and read to her from the Bible before they did their evening prayers. Yes, Mother would like that. It would do her own dark soul more than a little bit of good as well.

It was quite late by the time Mother finally nodded off, releasing Diane from her daughterly duties for the day. She knew that she shouldn't feel relieved, but she wanted to take a hot, leisurely bath and choose her pretties and clothing for tomorrow. It was her day to see Father John.

She'd been going to him for private counselling and confession for weeks now and it was always the same. He sat behind a makeshift screen and listened to her tell of her secret encounters, instructing her to touch -- dictating the where and how and when of it. He even told her when she could let go and let the Holy Spirit overtake her. That's what Father John called 'cumming' -- but Diane didn't let on. After all, it was sort of heavenly when she thought about it.

Over time, Diane had begun to notice that Father John's voice would change when he commanded her to claim release from the nasty thoughts and deeds she'd committed, making her long to tell him her deepest, darkest secret of all -- but she was also certain that this was the one confession that would damn her for all eternity. She just couldn't bear it any longer. Tomorrow she would tell him. She needed to if she was going to keep at least a shred of sanity.

Ablutions performed, Diane fell into her bed exhausted. Mother said she was evil for touching while Father John encouraged her to perform her penance -- doing the same thing that Mother had excoriated her for. Which of them was right? Were either of them wrong?