Not every time, but sometimes...yes. I derive great pleasure from getting as close to the edge as I can without crossing that threshold. It can be very rewarding, but when I push the envelope & try to stop then I find that the intensity stops cold and I barely get pleasure. Very odd.

I'll have to try sometime when I'm not the one in control.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.