You do understand that we, as humans, eventually heal? Maybe not back to "like New" condition, but we all get better as time (& yourself) allows...

Perhaps you will break his heart someday. To hell with "perhaps", you will. It's part of the learning curve. Just don't break your own spirit out of fear that you will hurt somebody.

LS seems to be enjoying the ride, you should enjoy it with him. So you've made mistakes, everybody does; the worst mistake you could make is to let the hurts of the past keep you from enjoying the present.

(BTW, I'm better at giving advice than at taking my own )

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Plug me into somethin'

If the theory does not conform to the facts, then the facts must be discarded.

No good deed ever goes unpunished

Never argue with an idiot. He'll drag you down to his level, & beat you with experience.

Well, since that seems to involve riding BamaKyttn, can you blame him?

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On the kinkometer, my kink measures as a sine wave.

Hear hear!

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Eudaimonia

thank you everyone for your support both public and private.

I'm still winning, no ultrams.

Along with the support of LS I realized that the reason I was taking the pills is I am a constant worrier, always stressed about something. I used them in the same way I used Marijuana at one point just to put me in a place where I don't worry. interestingly enough I found myself relaxing over the ritual of taking out the drug, pulling stems and seeds and generally breaking it up. by the time I was packing the bowl I didn't need to smoke. but that took a fairly long time to reach the point that the ritual was as calming as the act. And the really sad part is when I quit smoking it all together, I didn't once go..... god I need weed. I felt no physical or mental cravings, myself. shrug. I know I'm horrid.

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-Seems we got here just in the nick of time. Whats that make us?
--Big damn heros Sir.
-Ain't we just.

The best part was when we had a Doobie Bros album cover to clean our dope. Now no one makes album covers anymore...& a CD jewel case just isn't the same (too much static).

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Plug me into somethin'

If the theory does not conform to the facts, then the facts must be discarded.

No good deed ever goes unpunished

Never argue with an idiot. He'll drag you down to his level, & beat you with experience.

what you don't think I have the White Album thats older than me???? unfortunately my copy of Jesus Christ Superstar in the original cover is with my turn table at the ex g/fs house....I gotta get that. that turn table cover was holdin ice and or hunch punch ( aka pink panty dropper according to my father) about 10 years before I was even thought about

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-Seems we got here just in the nick of time. Whats that make us?
--Big damn heros Sir.
-Ain't we just.