Ok I know I'm left of the middle already but I was wanting y'alls opinion on something else I find weird about me. There are certain times when I'm having sex where I'm able to "meditate" I guess you'd call it to where I'm able to feel all the endorphins and physical pleasure that guys do when they cum, it's just that I don't ejaculate. I've heard of tantric sex but haven't really studied it or anything.

The only way to describe what I feel is kinda like my entire conciousness focused on what my dick feels. In doing that I can focus on feeling every fold and ripple of her pussy combined with the warmth and wetness. I don't need to tell any of you how much of a turn on that is. The best thing is, when the woman I'm with cums, I can feel it like you wouldn't imagine and it's like I cum with her even though I don't ejaculate. What's up with that?

Ejaculation and orgasm are two seperate physical responses that just happen to usually occur at the same time. It is possible to ogasm without ejaculating.

Your terminology is incorrect though since cumming implies ejaculation. Hence the term cum for the ejaculate.