Thank You, I Will Stay
 

Words alone can express only a small part of what I feel now. Please know that I am holding back tears. That mushy, funny feeling that comes just before the tears flow...that is where I am at right now.

I will stay.

The response to my Goodbye letter blows my mind. Wow. I am overwhelmed. I am joyfully drowning in such love and affection as I never imagined. What a wonderful death it is. I knew there would be replies from special people I have met and who have touched me, and Oh! how they can touch–open, real, thrilling touches that heal my heart and soul. I did not suspect that so many others would respond. Again, I am overwhelmed. I have printed those and I will treasure those for many years to come. When I get down on myself, I can read your loving words and be thankful that you guys are as beautiful as you are.

The affection, attention, the validation as a human and a man that I hoped I would find here, is here and more abundant than I ever imagined. Whereas I hoped for 25%, I received 125%!

This creates a whole new dilemma. Now I must deal with higher self-esteem and a more healthy self-concept. Do you know how hard that will be? Do you realize how uncomfortable it is having good self-esteem when the opposite has been the norm? I only hope you do. (I joke about this. Being the clown has brought positive attention all my life. People are sometimes surprised to find more to me than that. Old habits man.)

To everyone who responded and if there are any yet to write, though there is no longer a need, thank you, thank you, thank you. I will stay. You have made me change my mind. Also, I did not realize that there are so many old and now drugless hippies here. Not only that, but people of all ages. I should read more profiles I guess. Seeing myself as an old man too soon is most likely a negative consequence of low self-esteem. Another thing to change.

Finally, I will not try to thank specific individuals for fear of offending someone I may not mention. I thank you all. I hug you all. I kiss most of you.

P.S.: Now... If I can just stop falling in love with every beautiful, sensitive, caring, and sexy woman I met here... This is a good place to learn that lesson.

In Deepest Gratitude and Lovin' the Hell Out of Ya All,
Larry

LOL...The beauty of Pixies is you CAN love us all;)

Well then! Let me be the first to welcome you back! btw...you know all the answers I can just tell!:D (that is not meant smugly) You just seem to have a good head on your shoulders and the ability to sit back and take a good look at things, generally these types of people, in my experience, really know how to make it through just about anything! I"m looking forward to reading many more of your sexy, thoughtful, enlightening posts!:D

Lil beat me to it! Damn this dial up! LOL.

^^^LOL huntersgirl, has happened to me many times. :)



WELCOME HOME LarryL!!

Glad you're staying. Not to many can write a post as sexy as yours and they would have been missed.



Why not introduce the wife to Pixies? :) :)

Glad you're staying Larry.....

We like drugless ex hippies here! :D LOL

Larry, I can't tell you how happy you've made me. I am so glad you're here and you're staying with us!!!!
:love:

Damn! Where ya been M F'er?

LMFAO!

Pardon my potty mouth...but I gotta be me! I'm smiling like a cheshire cat because of your post hun! So glad you are staying! They say you never get a second chance to make a first impression? They're wrong...I'm impressed...again!

Can't wait to find time to get to know you better. Now...sit still for a bit, will ya?!!!!!

(((((Larry))))) I just couldn't be happier too. After all you were one of the first ones I posted with and you set the tone for me for this board. You would have been greatly missed. :heart:

Glad Ya decided to hang in here awhile. I enjoy reading your posts. Get on back in here and go to it!

I'm so glad to read that you are staying (SMILE). Like I said before, I certainly would have missed you.

Glad to have you stay, LarryL.

I just hope you have a great time here. Dive in and share whenever the spirit so moves you! ;)

Welcome back Larry L, you old crazy hippi dude!!!:D

wooohooo :) Great News...

I hope you don't mind as I continue to lurk in the darkness and enjoy your posts... so glad you decided to bend to our need to have you here...

Hugs