Ok, as a guy who's actually met the guy in question, I can only say this, you are FAR better off without him. I have a friend in a similar position and it hurts me deeply to see both you and her go through this. The only advice I can offer is to follow your mind, your a smart girl, you procrastinate too much but who doesn't? What I'm saying is that you'll figure this one out. The mind and heart of a human are two of the most powerful things in the world. What is important is that you let your mind lead you as much as your heart does. Like I said, you're a smart girl, so let your mind lead the way for a while.