Survey says.....clinical depression.

Which you already know.

Are you getting help for it? If not, I recommend it. You are NOT crazy, you just need help sorting shit out. that's cool, it happens to everyone. it's just that some people are not strong enough to ask for help or don't even realize there is a problem. You do and that's good. Now get some help to deal with it, becuase YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY - AND NOT JUST EXIST.