Well I have been searching for the right doc for quite some time now. At this point, the biggest challenge for me right now is simply finding a doc that will actually sit down and just let me ramble on. The problem there is that medicaid doesn't cover that type of stuff so I'll have to pay out the ass for it. The problem THERE is the fact that me and all my family are flat broke. Hopefully that will change by the beginning of the year. No worries though, it always works out.

Something that I thought about recently is the fact that I don't know what is the normal state of being "happy" is. Usually I'm either depressed, 'eh', or bouncing off the freakin walls. But a little bit before the last one is where it's just I'm too mixed up in living life to the fullest to get all that stressed out about life. Up until now I've considered being that way a bad thing because that's not the way I've ever acted or any of my family acts. But considering I'm the type "that's always up for another hole in my head (piercings)", I've been the black sheep of my family for a while now. My biggest danger is that I spend money I don't always have. I think all I've gotta do is leave my wallet at home at stop worrying so much about classifying my current mental status.

Like I said, no worries, it always ends up working out in the end anyway. It's just a matter of faith and that's one thing that I have in great supply.

later everybody