I miss her.

I've always gotten a little depressed around the holidays and I have a lot of holiday memories of laura. I knew I'd end up thinking about her eventually. At times, things were good, a lot of those good times include me holding her closely in my arms, comforting the both of us. That's what I miss the most, I miss the cuddling, the spooning, the warmth of anoth body on cold winter nights, and a soft somewhat loving smile to wake up to and kiss lovingly each morning. These are the things I miss most.

I wrote a letter to laura a while back never knowing if I'd ever send it or not. It was the first time I admitted a lot of stuff even to myself. It helped a lot but at this point I think that if I never talk to her again, I'm gonna spend the rest of my life wondering what she thinks of me. The letter I wrote her is a little too personal for me to post on here but if anyone's willing, I would like someone to read it and tell me if they think I should ever give it to her. When I was writing it I ended up getting pretty horny (as I usually do when I think of her) so I know I'll have to edit it a little for that if I ever give it to her. But like I said, I'd just like someone's opinion on whether I should just try to move on with my life never really knowing anything or whether I should at least try to clear the air between us.

If anyone's willing to read the letter then let me know and I'll pm it to you. If anyone has any suggestions on what to do about the questions in my head, I could really use them.

Merry Christmas everyone!

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words I live by;

POW/MIAs - No Will Never Be Forgotten

Karma can be a bitch, so don't make her mad!

Politeness counts.

The definition of a gentleman/lady is someone who does all the he/she can do to make the people around them as happy and comfortable as possible

Life's a bitch but it's all gotta be for something. If you keep faith in that, everything will be okay.

Every once in a great while, you just gotta kick a little ass!