I'm sitting here soooooooooooooooooooo alone!

Well, not all alone. Just to the right of me is my cellar door. My cat is scratching at it and crying in the saddest meow I've ever heard. I ain't all alone...just a door betwixt us. I can't let him out cause I just gave him the last glycerin suppository I'm ever going to give him in hopes that he'll pass whatever it is that is blocking him from pooping for the past few days. Just a few days before this I gave him his "last" suppository. I keep thinking this is the one that'll do the trick!

It's been about a year or so now that he's been having bowel trouble. He's 17+ years old and he used to weigh about 16 or more lbs. If he weighs 5 lbs. now it'd be a miracle. He has a hyperthyroid condition (has had it for a few years). and is still eating and drinking plenty of water. He never seems like he is in pain so I haven't taken him to the vets this time. To know Rocky is to know that he can't be seen by a vet (or touched by anyone but myself and Mr. Lixy) without knocking him out first. He could/can be very mean and he has all his claws. In the past couple years that I've taken him to the vets, and he has been knocked out, it's taken him so much longer to recover. I know in my heart he can't take it this time!

So, I was sitting here listening to him dig at the door and cry to get out and I felt a need to talk to someone. I tried calling my baby sis. No answer. I tried calling a few friends. No one is home. Mr. Lixy was exhausted and is in bed. I checked certain IM's and notta!

Here's the deal...

If this suppository doesn't help him pass the blockage we'll have to put him down. He can't contain this toxin and I can't watch him waste away to nothing. I was hoping he'd go to sleep and that'd be that. So far he is determined to hold whatever is in him and slim down to feather weight!

I gave you fair warning of this being a downer thread! I'm sooooooooooo sorry to lay it on you like this...but my heart is so heavy and I didn't have anywhere to turn.

We are thinking...if he isn't a bit better by Wednesday we'll call the vets and ask for euthanasia. I've never done this before and so I don't know protocol. I want to ask if I can hold him as he dies. I also want to know if they'll let me bring his body home to bury in my yard. We have a headstone for him already. Mr. Lixy cracked off a piece of granite from a protruding boulder in our yard several years ago. He needed to get over the boulder with the tractor. Anyway...he carved a "R" in it and has kept it in the barn since then.

Anyone know if I can hold him while they give him the shot, and if I can can bring his body home?

Geezzzzzzzzzz...I can see his paw reaching out from under the door. I have to go to bed now...before I cave in and let him out. My heart is aching like crazy! Just needed to get this out! TY for listening/reading!

I'll keep you posted.

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