rzande1,

There are so many things going on here all at once, so it's no wonder you're confused.

Firstly, your ex-girlfriend has discovered that she has wants beyond you.

Secondly, your low self-esteem has you wanting to hang onto something which you see as the only strong good thing in your life.

Thirdly, your ex has so little respect for you, matching your own, that she won't end the relationship you are unable to do so.

Fourthly, until you get a grip and start living for yourself, not expecting others to prop up your emotional existance, you'll stay fucked.

Fifthly, re-read the above four until fully absorbed and digested.

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