hmm i was married for 20 year.. and kept trying and finally did ask myself if it was worth it all and finally decided Fuck NO..

He was emotionally, psychologically and finally psycially abusive since i was changing and getting more asssured. He was also very threatened by toys.

let me start this way.. first anniversary he told me to keep look out for delivery .. i waited all day as i wasn't working then.. he came home and told me he was just yanking my chain.

We kept trying to make a new start and finally i called him 9 years ago this last labor day weekend and said "btw i am moving out.. CYA!

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I love the night
I love the element of danger and the ecstasy of flight,
I love the night
I love to dance with a stranger and to feel his delight,
And when the dancing is through, I kick off my shoes,
And I listen to the beating of his heart