Ken, Murphy, MsTerious, Sugarsprinkles, and jennaflower, I want to thank you so very much for your kind and helpful replies. I still feel like an eviscerated deer strung up for the blood to drain, but I am not asking "why?" as many times each day. I still grieve for what could have been and am in shock over what is, but at least I have resolved myself to the fact that I have to stick around for my kids' sake and can't check out. I haven't allowed myself to think that there actually may be someone else out there for me, and I still wonder if I will be able to trust my own judgment, much less trust him. Hopefully it won't be that long before I will believe that all three are possible. Thank you again.

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