Oooooooooh, stress... I can feel it in my stomach... there have appeared again some poisonous thoughts, but this time, although it is hard, I seem to bear it. What is different?
OTOH I know the facts for rather much time now. That lowers the feeling of catastrophy a bit.
And I have seen I am not alone ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))). My friends (visibles and Pixies), relatives, colleagues have all shown me that I´m not alone.
And I beleave in higher powers that will help me. I have this power always with me.
And OTOH, a good friend of mine is starting to be a very very good friend
if you know what I mean... The imagination she could be sad because I started doing stupid things...no, I do not want that. I prefer laying in her arms again after a hard phase of my life.
Angel_25: It is possible that I have found this "right" person already. But I need more time now. Need to check my feelings. Need to check everything about her. Need to work on myself. I am a child with burned fingers now. It is possible that I won´t marry any more. It is much more difficult to say yes again.
Lixy: I did not say NEVER.
Just this process of learning is a piece of hard bread to chew on.
TYVM for caring, you all do not know how much you help. Send me your prayers for Monday, when I will stand in front of that kinda tribunal in Gran Canaria...*breathe*
Stefan