i've promised i'll love her forever no matter what,
i've promised i won't leave her no matter what,
i've promised i won't break my promises again no matter what,

but i decided to give up... i don't wanna explain why i wanna do that because i don't want to go through the pain again. thanks for all replies and i really appreciate it.

guess i wont logon here for quite some time, need to settle down my feelings and will be back soon.

thanks again. i will miss you all