I don't know why, last night i got a dream I saw my frist one that i felt in love with.
I didn't think about him, but all of a certain I saw him in my dream. So weird. He was the first one that gave me the foundation of love, I got a huge crush on him and yes i felt in love with him after that. But I think he didn't love me as much as I love him, coz I was too young at that time and he was 10 years older than me. Now I think he is married and must have a few kids by now.
today the whole morning until now, I think about him, I can't get rid of him in my mind. I woke up think of him when I was sleeping beside my hubby. But i didn't tell my hubby that I dream about him.
now i have a feeling that I want to talk to him so much. But no idea how to find him coz I don't have his contact at all. and don't know where he is either. It was about 14 years ago.
sometimes i do think that I wish i can see him again, wow! isn't that great? he will seee me all grew up as a big girl now, i mean a mature adult now, and i am hot. hehehehehee
if he sees me now, I think he is much interest in me than when i was a little girl.