Sorry, but I am a tad bit

You have an open relationship? She can go away and play with another woman? And it is o.k. for you (by her acceptance) to go and play with another man? But you are not into men, is that right? Is it o.k. with her that you "play" with another woman? (since that seems to be your preference)

I don't mean this to sound harsh, but sounds like to me that she gets to have her cake and eat it too, while you are standing there holding an empty plate without a fork and are supposed to accept it.

Like Casper said......... talk with her about it when she gets back, let her know how you feel, but don't put what you are feeling at her feet as if she is responsible for them. In my opinion, if you express yourself in that manner, to me, it wouldn't sound insecure at all.

Keep us updated.......

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