First and foremost Darlin, any self blaming should stop right now. He screwed up not you. Second, his loss too. I'm certain he missed out on something special. I'd have not only called but been there early. I've had my share of misgivings pretty much the same way. I think I see signals that there's interest and offer an invite only to get blown out of the water or worse yet... conditionally accepted with a last minute change of plans. It WILL get better Hon. I know that's small consolation but all us guys aren't assholes I promise.

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