Oh god, I don't know how I missed this one all week.

Kitty, I know exactly what you're going through. I lived almost exactly what you described. If I didn't know better, I'd be asking if it wasn't the same guy. So when I say this, it comes from knowledge. You're not stupid. Just from reading your posts, I can hazzard that you're articulate, insiteful, and honest...three things that rarely can be found in stupid people. You are having a hard enough time right now, please don't beat yourself up on top of it. You don't need it and you certainly don't deserve it.

As for the rest of it, well...my heart goes out to you. You've gotten great advice here, and it sounds like you're taking it at youor own pace. There's nothting else you can do.

I hope for a happy ending to the story, whichever way it goes. Still, in the meantime, do PM me if you want to chat.