"I'm OK Honey, just a little sinus is all." I said wiping the moisture from my face. Carla just scoffed "Uh huh, I know big tough guy, you don't let anything get to you." She moved back over to sit on the corner of the bed in front of me and reached over to emrace me. "You did this for me, it was just a fantasy I always wanted to try. You'll never know how much I appreciate you doing this" "I know Baby, it's just gonna be a little odd if we're sitting around with friends and somebody brings up their first time together and how romantic and wonderful it was and I'll just smile and say 'Oh yeah, I whipped her ass and raped her our first time'."

Laughter broke out again, she had such a pretty laugh. "Bear Bear it's romantic to me that you'd allow me my fun before we did things the conventional way. I'm not your everyday girl. Besides, if we'd tried it after we'd been together awhile it would've taken the thrill out of it... remember we really just met. You could still be an axe murderer." "Awwwwwwwww Carla, we've talked and chatted for 6 months. You know me inside out. " "THAT'S the key Bear Bear, You're the only one I'd have ever trusted to do this for me." I'd worried about this little act for three weeks now, wondering if I could pull it off without hesitation. We'd agreed on a safeword and all that but I've never even pushed a woman before and here she was wanting me to roughhouse her and force sex. I had to resort to an old football psyching routine to pull it off but I managed and now we can relax and romance and eventually get to my fantasy, well as soon as I figure out what that is.

There, the turkey's done for now.... hope it wasn't too terribly torturing to muddle through. @

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As to marriage or celibacy, let a man take which course he will. He will be sure to repent - Socrates

Love is not looking in each other's eyes, but looking together in the same direction - Antoine De Saint-Exupery