Damn Ziggy, my heart goes out to you. I've been there Bro'. The next few months will be a son of a bitch no matter how you handle it. First things first though. Suicide will only hurt the survivors. You don't want to leave that precious little boy without his Daddy. Secondly and maybe as important, alcohol isn't helping a thing. It can only cloud your thinking. I agree with the others in that you need several good friends to talk to. Seeking a professional would be even better. I did and it was the best thing I could've done. You'll probably find yourself spending too much time wondering why. Remember, knowing why won't change it. Give her space, talk to her and see where she's headed and make plans to take care of you and your son. I know, easy shit to type and not so easily done. I wish you the best. Feel free to message me anytime. I'm no pro but I've certainly been through it. If it's any consolation, I can see now my son and I are better off. He doesn't have to hear us bitching at each other.

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