If I feel like masturbating to have an orgasm, it is rarely in front of Mrs. WI, though I do have that whole "she's secretly watching me" fantasy going on. I will rarely masturbate in front of her just for the intention to bring myself to orgasm.

If we're having sex and are both totally turned on, sometimes I'll masturbate while performing oral on her. It's especially exciting when she reaches for me and discovers my hand already there working myself over. I can feel her reaction. I'll move my hand out of the way so she can take over, but that moment of discovery is very erotic.

If she is pleasuring herself in front of me, I am transfixed. I want to take over but it's such a beautiful and sexy sight that I am happy watching. I'll usually bring myself to orgasm watching her.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.