I also know how you feel. I wanted to give a guy a blowjob for the longest time now. I also have the same problem; just cant seem to find the right person. Now looks do not really matter to me as long as the cock is nice, and most importantly clean. I have been talking to some guys on the net and over the phone. They live in my area. I am getting closer and closer to meeting with one of them. We have already set out some ground rules , like we will go for coffee first , see how thing go, then go back for a handjob , mutual jerking and then go from there. The guys I talk to have been tested ( or so they say). But my main concern again would be any type of STD.
Too bad your not in my area , you are the type of person i am looking for. Someone that has no previous gay experiance.
Good luck