For those of you who don't know me... or care about me... please disregard this thread.... the rest... proceed with caution... LOL

Let me tell you a story...

In April it was announced that one of my favorite Country Artists (Trace Adkins) was headed to my area for an appearance at the fair. OH yeah.. I was excited... tickets went on sale at 9 am on a Saturday morning... tickets available in person.. on the phone.. and on the net... since I wasn't able to get to the location that the tickets were on sale at.. I thought.. surely one of the other methods would work... WELL.. SIX hours later... I finally get thru on the net... order 2 tickets... and hit submit.. wait.. wait.. wait.. and then... it tells me.. NOPE.. tells me that the system crashes..!!!!!!! So.. I continue the redial again.. and again.. only to find out that the seats are all SOLD OUT!!! I was pissed.. not happy at all... especially when I get home to find out that their net company charged me for the tickets that I never got...

SO... the following monday.. I call.. raise hell... and they come thru.. 2 THIRD ROW tickets... so I contact the fan club.. pay my membership fee... and by the end of the day.. I have a back stage pass!!! WOOOHOOO

NOW... to figure out who would go with me... remember... I don't have anyone in my life.. haven't for years... Guess I am just not the date material.. anyway.. I degress..

I wanted STO to come with me.. even mentioned it to him... but.. as we are all painfully aware.. that wasn't meant to be... (it should have been a sign)...

I then ask a friend at work... he wasn't able to go.. since his father is dying of Cancer and took a turn for the worse.. requiring him to travel to see him... (this should have been a sign)

I ask another friend.... she can't.. she has to babysit her grandson... (this sould have been a sign)

I ask another friend... she has a family reunion to attend.. she can't go (this should have been a sign)

I ask another friend... he can't go.. just got a job working nites at Walmart.. (this should have been a sign)..

I ask my mom... she can't go.. is in too much pain.. (this should have been a sign)..

I ask my best friend (who I know doesn't care for country music)... she agrees to go..

So......... we head out to go.. tickets in hand.. back stage pass secure...

45 minute drive to the fair.. no problem.. good opportunity to catch up with my best friend... right...

well.. 45 minutes turns into an hour... the traffic is HORRIFIC... 3 miles from the fair grounds.. it is bumper to bumper... 1 hour turns into 2... driving around the radius of the fair grounds... 2 hours.. turns into THREE.... by that point.. the meet & greet is over.... the concert begins.. (I can hear it from the window of my car)...

and I finally give up... and drive the 45 minutes home.. drop off my friend.. and head home to cry as I type this..

The whole time.. I am fighing road rage.. pissed as hell... mad at myself... made as hell that STO wasn't with me... tho knowing that he was probably up above laughing... shruggin...


*sigh*...

I am just plain fucking tired on sooooo many levels... the fact that I miss the one event that I had waited months for... the fact that the ones I asked to go with me didn't feel enough for me to do so... the fact that I don't have someone in my life to share these things with... the fact that AGAIN I go to bed alone... I am just tired... done...