(((((jennaflower)))))!!! Every rain storm has something good but it's not always obvious to us at first glance. There may not be a rainbow but from the rain, flowers will grow and dry brown grass will be green once again.

I only know you from your post but through them I know you are a wonderful, kind, thoughtful, intelligent lady!

Your last paragraph has you standing in a mud puddle while the rain pours down on your head! You state, "the fact that the ones I asked to go with me didn't feel enough for me to do so..." It seems to me that everyone you asked had a legitimate reason why they couldn't go. They did not turn you down because they don't care for you! How wonderful that your girl friend agreed to go with you even though she doesn't like country music! A flower?

It is terrible you missed the concert.... "the concert begins.. (I can hear it from the window of my car)...I finally give up...drop off my friend.. and head home..." A similar thing happened to me many years ago. We rolled down our windows, sat up on the doors and had a sing-along with the other people stuck in the traffic with us, who were also hanging out thier windows. I think we got inside in time to hear 2 songs. I still remember that as a fun night.

Somehow I don't think it's just missing the concert but because you state the following twice, at the beginning and at the end, I think its more this that is causing you such grief: "... I don't have anyone in my life.. haven't for years... Guess I am just not the date material..." - and then - "... the fact that I don't have someone in my life to share these things with... the fact that AGAIN I go to bed alone..."

First of all from the little I know of you I'd say you ARE date material! Do not doubt that for a second! I do not have a clue as to why you are alone at this time in your life but use it to 'green up your grass'.... while the rain is falling concentrate on you, take a college course, or start a new hobby, travel, take a self defense class, do things you want to do just for you without having anyone else to account to, become a better, stronger person. But do it for you! Don't do it to 'find' some one. When the time is right everything will fall into place! Don't ever give up! There are so many people here who love you, I read it in thier post to you. Talk to them and don't let a little rain get you down. Rather, take off your clothes and run naked in it and rejoice in the fact that your you and you have a terrific future waiting for you!!

Please feel free to PM or IM me any time. Don't be sad... rain doesn't last forever, I know, I've been there. *hugs*