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Old 08-19-2004, 05:22 AM
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Hey mate i know where you are because i have been there. I failed in my attempt but have no idea why. I got the help I needed and it was a long time before I crawled out of that black hole.

I know the state you get in when you have decided that the world is not worth the pain of being in it, that sense of purpose and the way things settle down but it is the turmoil of the brain and emotions because you are severely out of whack.

I have recovered from those dark days and stay on meds so i wont go back there. I had those memories come back to me in later years, I got gang raped and my mind shielded it from me for many years. I knew there was something there but it didnt come out till i was ready but it was very hard to deal with.

There are some people in my life that make it worth fighting, I have my love Curvy to look forward to and the other thing is that my family has lost both my parents and for me to follow would hurt my kids and siblings so much.

You are family Larry, so many care for you here and i am sure in the world around you. Embrace the help you are getting, keep posting here and remeber that we all are with you.
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