Thought that I would add my $.02. Nietche (sp?) said "that which dies not kill us, makes us stronger". Sounds like a death wish, no. You must realize that any chance you take does not adversley affect you. I know, this sounds screwy, but, if you really think about it, everything you do, wether the result is good or bad, is a positive effect. But, that being said, YOU are the one who must find the inner courage and strength to make the choiv=ce and follow through with it. If you do nothing, you have still made a choice by default and it is usually the wrong one. It takes inner courage, strength and self-confidence to allow yourself to open up to someone, and I know from our conversations that you possess all of those in great quantities. YOU must make the decision to do or not, but, at some point, you will figure out that the possible gains outweigh the risks. Sorry to get so long winded, and as I said, this is just my humble opinion.