denny... courage has never been my strong suit.. when I am uncomfortable (good or bad) I tend to emotionally remove myself... but I am hoping to get past that.

Booger.. you know me well enough to know... on a personal level... that I don't take things slow... that one brick at a time hasn't been my style... I tend to knock down the whole wall in one sudden move.. then freak out and rebuild... faster.. taller.. stronger...

osuche... I think you touched on something very important that I have been struggling with... the "want it bad enough" thing... wanting it... feeling I am worth it... and finding the courage to take the risk... one big ball of twine for me.. and that is where part of my confusion is..

boilergirl1... Thank you.. Thank you.. the verse that you posted is one I had never heard and it hit home.. I will be printing it out and posting it where I will see it often...

fzzy... what a great idea... I will keep my eyes open for such a book... I think it will be a good tool to get me to become comfortable about opening myself up.

Lixy... you are right... by allowing myself to be crippled by fear... I am certain that I am missing out on wonderful experiences... and someday... if I don't move forward I will look back with a whole lot of regrets... (and you know how well I handle regret).

flywater... thank you... I didn't look at my absence of taking the chance as being a choice in itself.. thank you for pointing me in that direction... gives me more to ponder...

huntersgirl... your post made me giggle.. for I have often told myself the same things... but in my case... those statements are usually made in a context of "ah, you are a tough broad, you can go this alone"... I need to start refocusing that voice.. as you have... thank you.

ginger... thank you... I believe that you are right.. my excuses are the wall... and I need to remove it... and stop rebuilding it time and again...


Thank you all for your wisdom.. and kindness... you are all such wonderful people and have provided me with much food for thought... Hugs to each of you.... you have touched my heart...