Well, when I 1st started surfing I had just gotten my 1st divorce. I was sad and looking for anything to make me happy. Joy1st was the nic I used and still use on ICQ and MSN. I was looking for Joy 1st above all things. After using it for a few years and everyone knowing the nic I wanted something no one knew and that I could use to show my "naughty" side. I have been Midnight_kiss in several areas as well. So day to day I am Joy1st and when I am in a naughty mood I am Midnight Kiss. Then yahoo messes everything up by not letting me have either name, ,lol, so it is a combination of the 2 Joyful_kisses. And there you have it, I am still looking for anything that will bring joy to my life, I am just doing it more from the naughty side now,