ok to answer my own question
both of my big changes relate to each
other first i was a slut and bastard
in my youth one night stands no
comitment. after the fact i know i was
trying to blot out my feelings for guys
if i keep haveing sex with women the
urges will go now i know and acsept
who iam and now look for love not
sex.
wowi went on a bit there