So I have been seeing someone from Michigan for a while now (I'm from NY). Its been a long distance thing for a while. I have mentioned her before on here I believe. Anyhoo I am a bit stumped on where to go or how I should feel (if theres any real way I should). She works a lot and I am finishing school for nursing. As I finish, I am planning on heading out toward Michigan to get a job and to be closer to her. We both have been set on this plan and while I am for the most part hell bent on my own place to start, she has slowly won me over to possibly moving in together off the bat.

So last night she had her girlfriends over and they all got pretty drunk. she called me when they were all there and was talking about how their messing around with some personal toys she had (joking-wise...not using them). I let them go and then got a call later that they had stopped at the store and her friends invited a buncha younger guys (complete strangers) back to her place. She called me up before she hit the hay to let me know her friends all took the guys to the bar and she was crashin out. Now I trust her a lot and don't believe she would do anything to betray that. We were talking and the previous night came up and she mentioned she had to clean up fast in the morning because her Realtor was coming early and she had the toys laying through the house because...well a bunch of drunk and sex toys go hand in hand (literally). Instantly I got a bit sickened by the though of strangers handling personal items of the nature and specifically they were bought around times that me and her actually had times we could kick it and meet up.

So I kinda let her know how I felt. Told her that I didn't want to control her life (like her ex)...but it kinda sucked being so far away and stuck finishing school...when I hear stories like that. I also recognize that she does work a lot and she really needs to spend the downtime living her life as she sees fit. We have a very verbal relationship and tell eachother everything...so its not like I want her to not tell me what she's up to. I can chalk some of it up to jealousy....I am not particularly happy where I am right now as far as personal life goes (alot of my friends are in other states) and I would love to be around her during some of the shenanigans. So its a mix of I'm not happy here...somewhat jealousy...and kinda irritation that something that was intimate between the two of us really isn't that intimate anymore. Am I going overboard in my insecurities?