It has just now come to my attention that I have hurt and continue to hurt someone so very, very special to me. Imaginewithme, I am so sorry for being so callas as not to see the distress I was causing. If ever I felt foolish, this is in the top five. I have caused you worry and be concerned far beyond normal. I am now pounding my head into the table.

As is evident, I am a drama queen (opps, I mean King). I start writing and I embellish and build and dramatize. I always go way too far and say way too much. When I wrote about my nervous breakdown and plans for suicide, I should have down played it. Better yet, I should have kept my stupid mouth shut in the first place. I just have to jabber and jabber like some old hen. Imaginewithme, I did not intend to paint such a graphic and drastic picture. I’m sorry. This idiot internet has become my life and I just put too much into it.

I am OK. Sure, I have suicide thoughts as a new part of my Major Depressive Disorder, but I must just learn to recognize their warning signs next time and stop myself sooner. I promised you that I would not kill myself, and I will keep that promise. Please relax a little about me. I’m just some nut in Washington trying to get by and figure stuff out as I go. I will not, not, not be so damn honest anymore. It gets me in trouble. In this case, it got you in trouble, and the last thing I want for you to be in trouble. So from here on in, I’m truckin alright. It’s all cool.

Peace,
Larry

Larry,
I must admit your brazen confession hit me very hard as well. Many of the members here were going through a personal hell trying to deal with the aftermath of the unresolved feelings Skipthisone's suicide wrought only to have to profess your consideration of it s an option in dealing with your personal issues. I walked a thin line between wanting to hug you and slap the living shit out of you. I want you to be well, if it is so intense that you need treatment to deal with your issues then I wish you to get it and be successful! We want to help you shoulder your burdens but many of us are also trying to heal a very fresh wound. So as we give you support, we also must require it from you. That's what being part of a community is about, When you are weak, I'll be strong, and when I'm weak, (it will piss me right off but) I will need to depend on someone else. I am glad you are beginning to get to a point in your pain where you realize that your pain affects more than just you. That's progress!!!!!

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Amen!

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times two

ditto

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Dear Lord, I pray for wisdom to understand my man, love to forgive him, and patience for his moods. Because Lord, if I pray for strength, I'll beat him to death. AMEN


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ditto times three ...... LarryL, you dont know me, but, I do have a good ear to listen and a bit of experience to suggest things!!! Please feel free to call on me if you need!!!