With that attitude yep its bad!....Get up, dust yaself off and go get a life...same as most other people do

And its obviously NOT fine or ya wouldn't be here bitching about it

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Zan, the reality for ALL of us seems to be that we are subject to radical change at any time and in any direction. Be happy this happened early in your life. Work isn't a bad way to empty your mind of chaos. (I know a research position in the basement of a physics department some place works after about five years. )

The other reality is that we ARE all as replaceable as sparkplugs. They replaced MacArthur, didn't they?

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So yea here is the update. I was talking to her and she says i am supossedly her primary guy. She would tell me every detail of what she does with everyone else and also she said it might be just a one time thing and then she would be happy with just me. She says that she feels she only lives once and wants to have some fun. You know it is funny that I dont wanna see her do it cause i wanna protect her from getting pregnant and disease etc.

Sounds like she made the choice that's not YOUR job. That's her job now. Maybe just take care of your own ass so you can do sometning for somebody that may want your help someday.

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You know I got to say it sucks. I was totally happy with her. I dont know why things have to change. Ah well what can I say. I seriously hate the fact that I cant find anyone. I figured I was set with her. She saw something in me. No one else ever did or will. I was so happy. Ah well. I guess i am going to have to just focus on material things for happiness.

Yeah! Good start.
You've already proved there's not a lot of action with the R.S.V.P. for the pitty-patries.
Get off your duff and give it a try. Sounds like it can't be any more miserable then what you're doing now.

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See what I do not understand and what is really kinda discouraging to me is how everyone at work has a bf or gf. They are all young too. I mean how does that work? I just keep thinking that I am missing out on something that feeds my failure with women. I mean to not even get any attention. Ah well. I dont know what I am doing wrong.

STOP sending invitations to the party!

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I dont recall pantyfanatic. I am looking at the "list" and you are not invited.

Well you come into Pixes and start a pitty party for yourself I would say all pixes would be invited.

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whip me, beat me, tie me up, break my arm, but please don't break my heart

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rzande1,

There are so many things going on here all at once, so it's no wonder you're confused.

Firstly, your ex-girlfriend has discovered that she has wants beyond you.

Secondly, your low self-esteem has you wanting to hang onto something which you see as the only strong good thing in your life.

Thirdly, your ex has so little respect for you, matching your own, that she won't end the relationship you are unable to do so.

Fourthly, until you get a grip and start living for yourself, not expecting others to prop up your emotional existance, you'll stay fucked.

Fifthly, re-read the above four until fully absorbed and digested.

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Holy shit.

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We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.

Ditto

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