I apologize; this will be long. I've been in a LDR for 1.5 yrs, had 3 mos left to go before we could finally be together; he'd asked me to marry him, though, over a year ago. Suddenly he dropped off the face of the earth so to speak. The pain is tremendous, but I have accepted the fact that he is gone. I have 2 questions.

I'm 54, RN with a master's in Chinese studies, very liberal, left-wing politically, nonhomophobic, nonracist, nondrinker, nonsmoker, nondrug user, and nonreligious (a nonpracticing Buddhist), with a very high sex drive. I'm nonmaterialistic, an introvert, who loves to learn. I read a lot, don't watch TV. Believe in giving everything I've got to a relationship and that it's a partnership; I don't expect my spouse to support me while I sit home on my butt. And I gladly practice stuff suggested in How to Light His Fire. I'm not bad looking; will never be a size 5, but am curvy in the right places. Most of my partners have wanted to come back for more when it comes to sex; I'm definitely a giver and love variety.

Questions: How can I ever learn to trust anyone again, and am I asking too much (are there any guys out there anymore who'd want what I have to offer at my age)?

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