I am goning through problems with my partner. We have children who live with us. We have been very happy in the past and have posted pics here. Now i learn she has had a thing with a man who 'loves her'. But she doesnt want that. Although she has admitted she did love him more than me at one stage. She doesnt want to be drawn into something with him. Although if I left her she would prob go to him. She wants to chase her career am im fine with that and am leavin mine so she can have that chance. She txts this man all the time. I love her so much its drivin me crazy. I would like to seriously hurt the man involved but think it would serve no purpose as it would be wrong and she would not respect me for it. Its really complicated at the moment. She has said she loves him but wouldnt like to be with him. At the moment she is away on holiday as I said she could so she might have time to think. I just dont know where to go from here. I feel i have tried everything and am still hitting a brick wall. I just find myself drinking too much and I know that isnt a good thing. I have even thought about ending it all but i know my little boy would be devestated. And to be honest that is all that has stopped me. I know where all the tablets are in the house and how many there are. I need help but dont know where to turn. This is one reason why I havent been in here as often as I like. Please help me. Any advice would be greatfull!!

This probably doesnt make much sence but any help is appreicated.

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