sigh...Alright im new to sex pretty much i just started having sex last july and a couple days ago was me and my fiances 7 month anniversary. Anyways lately ive been feeling really insecure about myself and have been emotionally unstable on and off and im pretty scared because i havent really been that experienced and this is the only guy ive ever had sex with and this is both of our's first serious relationship. So anyways, a while ago after spending a tweak-feeled weekend with him watching my cousins trailor we came back and i saw a porno called "a girls affair" of course it upset me because at one time at a show he was flirting with this bisexual girl and kept gawking when this girl kissed a female friend of mine. Anyways it made me feel 2nd rate and yeah i did feel a little threatened even though i learned his intentions for "being" nice later was for an acid hookup (dumb...blah personal stupid shit) So back on topic i started crying and than he smashed it and said if i dont want him to have porn than he wont. Am i being a bitch? I mean i odnt care we all wank off , everybody finds everybody else attractive, but im trying to feel better about myself and he seems to be feeding on my insecurities for the past month or so, and im not sure he realizes it and im not sure how to address the issue. Were goin to a porn shop tomarrow and im considering getting a movie but im also shady on the subject at the same time because i feel like im not as attractive and i feel like if we have sex after it than hes thinking of them...I dont know, im not being a bitch i know im not.

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