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All messed up
Come on all you extremely sensible Pixies, please help me get my head sorted. Its all completely mixed up! (Jennaflower and nikki1979, you heard all this before)
I'm a bit fragile tonight as a good friend, who i thought a lot of, and had some great times with, has found someone really special, and it means I shan't see her, in the flesh anymore. When she rang last night to chat, as we have done for a long while, she was in happy tears, but I cracked. I had to face her and admit how I felt. It hit her and I got the "why didn't u tell me before?" and all the rest of it... and we both ended up in tears. Its the chance she'd been looking for, for happiness etc, and if I've messed up her life, then I shan't forgive myself.
Plus I''ve been chatting by text message to the other woman I like, and I think i'm getting the drift it isn't me she's wanting, its another of my mates. As I'm the president of the local Astronomy society and shes the secretary, I'm not sure if I could still carry on, plus he goes to the astronomy society too, if its who I think it is. She asked for his email address and wouldnt say why, I just got "None of your Business!" I call her tonight on some other society matter and ask her direct, she still won't tell me. I suspect I've missed out...
Looks like the two for whom I held a candle, the flame has gone out, and it's hit hard. I'm not the emotional type but last night I was and the last 24 hours have been murder for me.
Advice please...
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