OK yea this is hard. I deleted all her text messages and it was really painful....

Well the only advise I can give is from personal experience...


Take baby steps...

1. Crawl into bed and cry. I mean really cry like you did when you were a baby.

2. Sleep cause if you dont give your body time to recover from the cry you will have a head ache.

3.Pull yourself out of bed and get in the shower, and if you need to cry some more. Then get out and clean your self up. Shave your face, put cologne on and comb your hair. Call a good friend and see if they would like to join you on an outing...walking, going to a bar, or just a cup of coffee someplace you have never been with her. Something to get you out of the house. Promise yourself you wont talk about anything remotely involving her. Even if you see a flower, a brick. a piece of paper or something reminds you of her dont say anything just smile and keep going.

4. Try not to talk to her...that seems to help more in getting out of the rut that you find yourself in. Since you talked with her today, dont talk to her tommorrow, and if you MUST then call the next day....and not the next. Put more time in between the times you call and that will make it easier too.
You seem to be talking out of anger now to her and that wont be good for either of you...your just hurting yourself and her.


Life goes on. It may take some time but it will get easier. The person you were ment to be with is waiting for you to get out there and find them. But you have to get over this...it is a process...we all have to just go through it bit by bit....each day it will get easier to breathe and find something good about the day.


Just my thoughts/I hope they help.

Been there done that.
Natalie

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DAMN, YOU ARE A SEXY ONE-skipthisone

I beleive in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve, and I beleive in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days. Kevin Costner/Bull Duram

"Your body as well as mine has needs. This is juat a little foreplay to highten our desire for each other. If we play out the game of love to it's natural conclusion, you'll experience fulfillment. Give yourself up to me and I'll guide you along the path to pareadise. Together we will be like fire and ice, love and hate, life and death." Virginia Henley

WANTED: a moment when you kiss someone and eveything around you becomes hazy. And the only thing in focus is you and this person and you relize that he is the only person your suppose to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. You want to laugh and you want to cry. Cause you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared it will all go away at the same time.

the problem is you are not 'moving on' but must; it is an unhealthy relationship for both of you. i would take some of txgrneyes' advice farther and say don't try to not talk to her, just don't talk to her. period. i say again, it is not healthy this relationship you have had with this girl, at least what you have shared here and on other threads.

everyone has unpleasant things they must face and endure, and you'll have a lot more after this one. don't dwell and don't drown in self pity, ire and depression. pick your self up and move on. good luck

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Trees give peace to the souls of men * Nora Waln

The forest would be very quiet if no other birds sang than those who sing the best * Henry van Dyke

some fairly sordid tales, rambles, and anecdotes
Hypothetically Speaking * Something More * Cammy Interrupted * An Experimental Vacation * Masked * so..damn..hot * Thank You * My toy, his idea * no.19 Maple Lane * I Have A Surprise For You * Yesterday * In a Quiet Kitchen * help me decide * untitled prose * more untitled prose

I know I know. I really need to move on but there still is this stupid hope in my mind that we will get back together.

Well stomp on that hope!! While you continue to live in the past there is NO future for you!

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I've followed along and have yet to figure out...

What's in it for you?

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.

So now she is all appologizing to me and blaming herself etc. it is rather interesting. I wonder if she is now thinking oh crap what did she do and the results are shocking her.