I apologise unreservedly to Lilith.

Yes i was lashing out in pain and frustration not knowing where the woman I love is, if she is OK, where is my life going other than down the plughole.

I was very near breaking point yesterday and clutching at straws and seeing one of those straws taken away burst the dam.

Through the help of a young friend who I met through an Australian Idol message board of all things, I have located Curvy, she is home. It was at 11pm last night and I have not slept a wink since.

Well she is safe at least.

Why she has just gone silent is something I have not yet discovered but I will.

It was being kept in the dark that was killing me and it was slowly killing me, my health has deteriorated markedly in the last couple of months.

It was ironic that it all blew up yesterday and within hours the jigsaw pieces started to fall into place.

I am apprehensive at what the next few days hold but the strain that has dogged me over the last 3 months is gone. You can deal with the truth and what is but it is a different matter when you are left in a void and have no way to resolve issues that you have only a vague notion of.

(((Ian)))

Not knowing is one of the toughest things in the world. Again, I hope things turn out well for you.

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Put me on wheels and I'll turn tricks.

Clever? Nah, I ran out of that years ago. But if you find this, let me know, k?
"The road goes ever on..." ~ Tolkien

In memory of my friend skip...
Go then, there are other worlds than these

Very happy to see THIS posting, Grumble. Hang in there.

(((((GRUMBLE)))))) Good Luck!

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Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds.
~Bob Marley
His clothes are dirty, but his hands are clean; and you're the best thing that he's ever seen.
~Bob Dylan

I've been away for a few days. I hope things will right themselves for you. Seems like you have a lot of the Pixies pulling for you and wanting to help. (((Grumble)))

Grumble, I'm glad that at least, even if only in a small way, things may have gone better. I am also glad that you are not leaving us... here's hoping for some more things to go in the right direction.

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"It takes a lot of brains to enjoy satire, humor and wit - but none to be offended by them." -- Johnny Hart ("BC", cartoonist, 2000)
"Analyzing humor is like dissecting a frog: Nobody really enjoys it and the frog generally dies as a result." -- E. B. White

((((Grumble)))) ~ good luck, and I hope you find out what you need to.

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Life is too short not to love and be loved....preferably multiple times in one night.

I think men talk to women so they can sleep with them and women sleep with men so they can talk to them. ~ Jay McInerney